4th of July

My Ballerina

4 months old

Where does the time go????!!

5k

This past weekend I ran my 1st 5k since Holly. It held a special place in my heart. When I ran last years I had just found out I was pregnant with Holly the night before. Ben ran with the girls... and of course I never got a pic of that :-( But a bunch of us Volleyball girls got all dressed up for this run. For many of the girls this was their first 5k. And I could not be more proud of them.... one in particular past me by a couple minutes!!! I had my fastest time.... running 9:44 sec miles and hope to beat it with more 5k's this summer! It is so different running being a nursing mama and also so different than running the a half. It was a perfect day for a run and can't wait for the next one!

Capturing Smiles

Time goes by....

TOO FAST!!!
I can't believe Holly is already 3 months! I am sad but so happy too! She is just soo much fun! Although she doesn't just smile at anyone like Ava did. (And sometimes you really have to work for it!) When she does smile she smiles with her WHOLE BODY! She curls her toes... fingers and squints her eyes.... it is just the cutest thing! We are loving this weather and getting to go for walks in our new double stroller. Meeting friends and the park etc.
Gotta love Summer Time!

2 month ck-up

Holly had her 2 month ck-up today....although she is almost 10 weeks old. She weighed in at 12.9! He didn't tell me what that ranked her as but when I looked online that put her in the 82nd percentile! Much bigger than Ava was... Ava always stayed in the 50% range. But I also was unable to nurse Ava past 3 weeks.... the Doc says I have good MILK! LOL

I have to say.. I am sad I was unable to nurse Ava the way I am with Holly. I resented Ava during the whole nursing process cuz it hurt so bad and it just wasn't working.. and then I felt like a awful mom when I stopped. I wish I wouldn't have beat myself up about it so much... but at the same time... oh how I wish it would have worked.
I am not one of the moms that looks down on formula fed babies.... Ava was one of them. And I know plenty of nursed kids that are sick all the time... and ones that had formula and never seem to be sick. So I will never judge anyone for not.
But for my own self. There is something so wonderful about nursing Holly. I feel so much more connected to her. I love the fact that can do something for her that no one else can do. How long do I plan on nursing... people have asked... I don't know. I am not putting a limit or time frame on it. I am nervous about when teeth come in :-0 Eekk.. but we will take it one step at a time. But I do know I will miss it when I am done.
I will not however miss pumping at work....worrying about leaking and all the fun stuff that comes along with nursing :-) But to me it is worth it! And since we are planning on this being our last baby.. I am so glad I have gotten to experience this.

Holly has been much better in the colic department! I really don't know what it was... we did the chiro... and a week and half later it seemed to come back.. so then we did meds... but not sure that was it either. We are not giving her anything now and she has been so happy. I am just soaking up her smiles and cooing! This months ahead I am going to cherish forever!